And the blogging journey begins

I sit here, wrapped up in a big duvet and a hot mug of tea at hand collecting my thoughts to put to blog.

My thoughts are not as free flowing as they used to be, but the more I blog the easier it will get. Forgive me if the first few are scambled and difficult to understand. The main point is that I understand when I re-read.

Tonight, at midnight was the end of a friendship. One I cared alot for. I met GH through my good friend GC. They started dating a year ago and he was soo eager for us to be friends. Anyway, it happened. All very quickly, she became one of my best friends. I've never had a friendship that was so speedy, but in reflection, its because of the type of person she is. She is very in your face and very involved. It didn't really bother me for the most part. GC has been my friend for a good 6 years and I care alot for him. He was being trampled on by GH and his emotions crushed and suffocated. He opened up to me through a messaging service whilst his other half was at work. He simply explained how she had been treating him behind closed doors and asked if I felt he was being unreasonable with his feelings. I told him the truth - that I didn't think he was being unreasonable. That infact I think he had been very patient with her. Anyway, months down the line GH reads up on GCs chat history (she isn't a very trusting person) and sees our conversation. To cut the story down - she and him are "fine"now. Two weeks have passed and there is no sign of our friendship being salvaged. I am generally a very stubborn person, so I made no effort to "make up" because I don't feel I was wrong. Neither does her other half, but he's not getting involved, which I respect - he has to live with her! I decided to be the adult and make contact, just to lighten the mood by sending a joke via sms. No reply. I leave it a week and send what would be my final sms to her. I gave her the opportunity to contact me within a 24 hour period if she wanted our friendship returned.. I got nothing. Nothing, nada. So thats it. Over with. Shame. Coz we shared alot. I'm not going to let her trample over my heart like she does with GC. She has met her match with me. I'm pretty sure this won't be the last blog about this situation though. So watch this space.

Anyway. I've had quite the chilled out day today. Not feeling too wonderful - girl problems and all that. But I decided to go out a jog to clear my head and get a bit of exercise. It worked. Didn't get to run for too long but what I did was enough to make me feel accomplished. Felt like I needed a bit of cheering up so got a wee haircut. When I say wee, i mean wee - you can hardly notice a difference. Oh well at least it looks tidier.

For most of the day, I spent time online. Signing up to this and chatting to my bf (let me introduce him - "PK"). Couldn't wait for 8 so I could collect him from work and have our routine x factor saturday night! He finished work, and allthough i'd been talking to him all day, I missed him and couldn't wait for a kiss and cuddle. Had a nice wee night with him and ended up snuggling up in bed. Now this is when I get most uncomfortable and well, pissed off. His dad comes into the room (generally a really nice gentleman) to tell PK the time. The time!! Basically its his way of telling me to get lost. I can appreciate where he is coming from though and understand why he is doing it. It just makes me really impatient to get our own place. If only I could afford it now - i'd be out of where I am right now in a shot. PK would be living with me too. We wouldn't have to deal with anyone. We could walk around the house naked if we wanted to, not worry about leaving things on the floor and a dirty dining table. We could be us. Living at out pace and doing as WE want. Let me tell you one thing for sure - when the time comes we do get our own place. It will be OURS. No one is going to dictate but us.. and we're not leaving the house, for a least a month haha!

So well, thats that for now. Mug of tea has finished.

LM xx