...Its been a while

I've not posted here for a long time but i'm going to try do it again.

Alot has changed since I posted last. Infact too much to mention.

A recent happening is someone i loved, a huge part of my life has let me down thoroughly. I'm not over exaggerating either. He gave me threats and even threatened my life and the life of my loved ones. Its horrible how someone can just turn on you. It does disturb me, because i still think about him and worry about his welfare but I know i really should forget about him. I've taken enough abuse - i've had mugs of hot coffee thrown at me, a crutch speared at me, a cigarette thrown at me. I've been spat at. Yes I still worry about him. I hate that I can't just switch off and move on. I've been doing so well lately with my depression but this set me back a little. I'm determined to get on and try get better though. I dont want to let this get me the way I was.

It really has been a while since i blogged, which is why this is really just a vent. It has no structure and probably hard to read.

I know who my friends are. I love my friends. I love my family.